Lately I have had a shift in thinking; for example; for whatever reason I live under this self-imposed pressure to be the perfect wife and mother. By perfect I mean have the house clean, laundry washed (and folded, ha), groceries purchased and dinner cooked, everyday. Now, as unfounded as this pressure may be it is very real; so here is what I did. I cleaned my house, I know revolutionary right? For almost a month I have kept it up (well mostly). What I discovered is that I could play with my kids and not feel guilty, that I could surf the net, during nap time of course, and not feel I was being lazy. I know these are all things I am not suppose to feel, but this is what I have struggled with and I think there might be others also.

Here is the thing, this pressure is not something that should be felt, we should allow ourselves to be with our kids and enjoy them, and as they say it goes by so fast. I have decided that I will not spend this time feeling like I should be doing something other than playing with my kids. I am not one to jump to the next thing right away and do things at a different pace, but I am not lazy and I am a good mother and wife... I do have to keep telling myself this. If there is a night where I don't clean up after dinner or the load of clothes are not put in every night, it does not reflect how I love my family. As a mother the thing I realize more and more everyday that we do the best we can and let the rest go.

Also the way I feel the Lord sees me is changing and that really helps to show me I am not all that bad after all. The things that make you feel happy are the things that make him happy. Anyway that are just a few things I have been thinking about and trying to figure out how to say, hope it made sense.